Well,

Today has been a mixed day, what started out as a very negative day, became positive.
I decided that i would plaster my wall in thinspiration and boy, it looks good. - I am proud.

I have CAMHS tomorrow, shitting myself. Got my Diet coke and my strongmints at the ready for tomorrow. Got vpainful tummy ache though, but no pain no gain.
I remembered to do my video blog today. :)
It suprised me just how helpful it is.
I see people pop up online, and i think, we were once so close, now we could pass eachother in the street and not say a word. I have lost my friends, lost my mind. Lost it all.
All except the one thing i want to lose, weight. Gah.
PT girls are so fucking amazing, each and every one of you. pure inspiration.
You don't understand what you're helping me through. I spent today doing an english essay, FAIL. I am intending on spending tomorrow cleaning my room, why not i say?
I'm feeling down i don't know why.
Bleh.