Fat Disgrace.

So, i had tea. I had chicken breast and Chips. I ate like, half and threw the rest away, i feel like sucha  greedy pig, i kept half away just to prove i could which i was quite pleased in myself for. I went to the toilet after and purged, which for once was incredibly easy. Ever since i just want to binge, everytime i see a person or a photo i just, i see a number above their head, how many pounds they need to lose to be perfect, it really gets me down.
I downloaded a fair few videos of like, thinspiration reversed? I find it more motivating looking at fat people and thinking i do not want to be like that i must not be like that.
The words want and need overcross in more ways than one, at the beginning i just wanted this, now it feels as though i need this. - I have made so many amazing contacts on prettythin and we communicate in a variety of ways, i'm starting the Skinny Bitch diet monday, wonder how it will go. Just thought i would inform you of that.