FAT

I feel so fat and disgusting, i'm allowed 400 calories today, and so far i have had 350. And that is how it will stay, i had to eat tea, spag bol,  but had a small serving. I went straight to the bathroom and purged, it all came back up but i still feel so greedy.  I have a bug atm, so i can easily use it as an excuse not to eat. WIN. My throat is ever so ever so sore right now. I think i need to plan ahead for tomorrow about what i'm going to eat.
I tried the cold bath thing today, i laid in an ice cold bath for 40 minutes, i cannot get warm and my body is covered in rashes now :/, but apparently it burns calories so there. I'm contemplating a fast, liquid only, but i'm not entirely sure yet. Binge free today, and proud. I looked in the mirror after the bath, and felt physically sick, my body is disgusting. Eat to live, not live to eat.