Urgh.

So i weighed myself today, ugh. How i weigh in the morning kinda determines how my day goes, what i let myself eat.

Today, well lets just say it's a bad day for me, ugh, i've had 550 calories today, and that is where i draw the absolute line, i feel unbelievably fucking greedy.
Tomorrow i start skinny bitch, i think it could be just what i need. I'm wanting to review some blogs, could be interesting.
I want someone to hug me and get their arms all the way round me.
I want someone to cuddle me and say how skinny i am.
I want to be beautiful.
I want to be wanted.
Dreams can become reality but only with hard work, i purged after what i ate today, and what's unusual is the fact that, i have made myself sick for years and years but it's getting harder and harder.
But every pound down is one step closer to beauty.
I need to be wanted.