From tomorrow i have a plan, a good one at that. i will succeed, i will be thin.

I can't deal with being fat anymore, it is making me so unbelievably miserable and sad, i see people and think wow, then look at me and feel sick, THIS.IS.IT, i must not eat. NO. NO. thin is the most important thing to me. DIETDIETDIET EMS!

i was a dirty slut and its all my dfault i asked for it and its all my fucking fault i deserved everything that happened and i cant espACE IT SO THE ONLY WAY TO I89S TO die dideidideiedidieiedieiedkidieieididieie so 9 sh0duyod dideidieiddieieieididieei

new day new start, camping tomorrow :/

I have decided that for every 5 lbs i lose, i shall reward myself. winwinwin.

Tuesday 25th July 2011

00:00 - 100 sit ups.

01:00 - 09:00 - Sleep

09:30 - Cycle 2.2 miles (My house to my sister's grave)

10:30 - Cycle 2.2 miles back

11:30 - Let myself eat a banana crumble baby food meal

12:00 - Do 50 star jumps

12:30 - Walk to the chemists and get mum's prescription

13:15 - Dance on the wii, do 6 songs. ( 20 minutes)

14:00 - Do 100 sit ups, reps of 10.

15:00 - Hoover and wash up

16:00 - 20:00 - Chill & 7pm banana

20:00 - 60 sit ups

21:00 - 50 star jumps

22:00 - 50 star jumps

23:00 - chill

Urgh

Mega binged, likle literally thousands of calories.
HATE fat fatfatfatfat Could literally die, stab myself, diediediediedie.