Today ..

So today i let myself down, once again. I had 245 calories, and i feel such a failuire, I purged, and brought them back up,  i just let myself down, and you guys so much.

Tomorrow i have school and god, i am actually so incredibly nervous.
I'm dreading it, like nothing before. I just want to cry, i am sick of all this fat, i want to be thin, i want to be gorgeous, i want to be free of this.

I really really  hope i don't have to see pw. :(