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I am actually pretty fuming. Try to be nice and :@ well fuck you.
This is MY blog, don't like what i am saying well fuck off, don't message me and tell me.
I am a useless worthless fat bitch, i know that.
But you, YOU?!?!?!
You think you can fucking judge me, well you can't.
Because i'm fat what i say doesn't count. Yeah, right, ok.
I WILL lose weight, and be smaller than you, then you have to listen, when i am thin and beautiful, then you will listen to me, then you will see what i say should count, it's just completely unfair.
Right, tomorrow, from then absolutely everything will completely change, fuck the "sensible dieting"
Fuck it. Fuck you. Fuck me.
Tomorrow what shall i have? Well ideally i would like fuck all. But you know, i hate being such a disgusting skank.
Orange Hot Chocolate - 40 calories.
Prawn noodles 
1/3 Pack of Prawns - 38 calories.
1/2 a slab of noodles - 86 calories.
Garlic Powder, Basil, Parsley and Oregano - 10 Calories.
Cooking oil - 4 Calories.
Alltogether - 118
Wow, so far 158, terrific.
Eggwhite Omelette
3 Eggwhites - 48 calories.
1/3 Prawns ( love them) - 38 Calories.
Garlic powder - 10 Calories.
Oil - 20 Calories.
Alltogether - 116
So far, 276.
Hmmm. I will let myself have 1 more hot chocolate too?
So that's 316.
Apples are nice and snacky, mhmmm. I will have an apple later than night, so that's 376?
Yeah, why not, one final Hot chocolate that night  so, 416.
Yupp that will do me, bit calmer now. Taken me 13 minutes to post this.  Watching some murder programme. I just want to cry, why does everyone hate me? I only try to do good, i absolutely promise. :'(.
If you're reading this and you too hate me, please could you message me, on here, msn, pt, email, text, anything. Please, just tell me why, i try to do good, I just don't get it.