I can't deal with being fat anymore, it is making me so unbelievably miserable and sad, i see people and think wow, then look at me and feel sick, THIS.IS.IT, i must not eat. NO. NO. thin is the most important thing to me. DIETDIETDIET EMS!

i was a dirty slut and its all my dfault i asked for it and its all my fucking fault i deserved everything that happened and i cant espACE IT SO THE ONLY WAY TO I89S TO die dideidideiedidieiedieiedkidieieididieie so 9 sh0duyod dideidieiddieieieididieei

new day new start, camping tomorrow :/